Everything from Natural Childbirth to Stress Headaches

I am realizing what an incredibly prideful individual I can be at times, and what's worse, how much I am like my father. I love the man, don't get me wrong, I wouldn't be where I am today without him helping me along the way. My wife requested that I watch a documentary with her about natural childbirth about two months ago. Well, last night, I finally sat down and watched it with her. I have asked her about the decision to have our third child naturally on a number of occasions, but she simply puts it that she feels it needs to happen this way. I am a very, very logical thinker, maybe to a fault at times. This trait gets in the way of religious inclinations and prohibits me from trusting my instincts while making decisions without researching it first. So, this narrative leads to my first thought-provoking question, 'Why would I argue something that is likely to make my wife feel incredibly proud, closer to our son, and will probably turn out to be a fantastic experience for the three of us together?' I have no answer to that. ;-)

There is a great deal happening in our life right now. I generally live with a certain amount of stress, and this seems to keep my mind busy all the time. I joke about the fact my mind is racing all of the time. I come up with great answers at the most random times. I enjoy my current job, the company that I work for, etc. I am having difficulties with a few people I work with. I have been talking with my wife about moving for several months now. I finally applied for a job that would be beneficial in every way. I would feel completely comfortable taking on this new position, and it would be worth the hassle of moving my family down to Arizona. The real estate market is very soft right now, and I do not think we can sell our house and make any money on it. Honestly, I would be happy to break even. We will have to get the house sell-ready with a newborn, move, continue on at work, and then figure out our financial situation if I end up getting this job. Ouch. That's a lot to handle. That does not take into account my six day residency in Arizona this next week, the fact that if I do not get the job my review is up in six weeks, and spiritually, I have some very serious work to do.

I would like to end with a thought. I love movies, and to hear something that is actually quite profound come from an animated film makes me laugh. I have been thinking about it a great deal the last five days, and it is very true. I think I am going to share it with my team tomorrow. It goes like this, "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why they call it present." - Oogway, Kung Fu Panda. When words like that come from a guy who looks like that, they had better be good.